Thank you sobriety Journal Entries Written by Lisa W " Black dark shame. Black dark guilt. Black dark self-loathing. Black. Stairwell. Gripping hard to stay upright with an audience on the sofa watching. Relief. I made it. They didn't notice. Bedroom staggering. Steady crawl. Pass out. Press repeat. "
"There is nothing like being in a dream to wake up living a nightmare." - Anonymous
-Dawn (Peeping sunshine)
- Diary Entry December 2018
I no longer lie awake at dawn as the sunlight peeps through our shutters fearing a new day, praying to the universe that today will be different as I wrack my brain as to what I did, what I said or what I promised at the witching hour. I now welcome the dancing sparkles of sunlight on the dappled floor plotting and planning my new day, with a new found energy, a new found purpose and arise from my bed, clear-headed and alive.
In sobriety, I smile as I know I am rewriting that script, and I feel excited, nervous, terrified, and grateful all in the same minute. I am thankful for sobriety because...
Thank you Sobriety.
I am Alive - I no longer feel like I am sleepwalking through my life, a bystander on the margins, powerless to make a change, held hostage by secrecy and lies that were strangling me. I stand here exposed, naked, and strong taking ownership of my life steering it where I want it to be, rather than being steered down a deep dark hole of remorse and guilt.
Thank you Sobriety.
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