I have anxiety in a vehicle, although, I was never in a crash. Scenes from a TV show will trigger an outburst of tears. There are times I simply cannot get out of bed. Like muscle memory, my body instinctually knows what’s coming, sometimes before my mind, for instance on birthdays and holidays. I have since sought out professional support and continue to navigate through my grieving and healing. We now live in a different city and have grown stronger in our faith. I am thankful for each day God gives me to navigate through the different seasons of life. I am so very grateful for a loving and supportive husband, my family, and friends who continue to be here for me. Because we were and have remained such a close family, we often come together to remember our boys and keep them close. We live for them. Throughout our lives my mom always said, “somos familia”, “we’re family”. We were raised to believe that no matter what, family came first. That familial bond was woven tightly and though this tragedy stretched and pulled at the corners; we’ve managed to stay intact. Over the eight years since they’ve been gone, we still get together for their birthdays, and we still maintain their memorial markers at the crash site. This year, we were able to do something truly special, take our boys on an adventure and I could take a moment to breathe and connect with, Joshua, and Isaiah. “ ... my mom always said, ‘somos familia’, ‘we’re family’... ” “ . .. Because we were and have remained such a close family, we often come together to remember our boys & keep them close. We live for them ... ”
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