Sober Thoughts
Sobriety has gifted me so very much but one thing that matters so very much in the early hours of my day is the CLEAR knowledge that I am not alone in this, I was not the only woman, mother, wife, sister, daughter, best friend who f*cked up. There are thousands of us and yes we are in different countries and different time zones - you get up when I go to sleep and I go to sleep when you arise BUT, I know you are out there and that in itself makes everything easier……And yes I know it can be terrifying facing into a family crisis without our usual anesthetic, nor will I argue that grief or loss are easy at this time of year and I truly understand your kids not towing the party line is wearing, and yet sounding like a broken record in your own life telling all around you to pick up after themselves or walk the dog is bloody annoying yet I will wager that no matter what life throws at you - it is easier without alcohol the ultimate gateway drug to shame-guilt-self-loathing of EPIC proportions. The type of worrying proportions that feel like a tsunami and hit the hardest at 3.00 a.m. parched reaching for our self-respect on a bedside locker that holds nothing but the indignity of realising we have done it again……. -Susan Christina -
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