treat me like I always wanted him to. After 9 months I agreed to try again with him. We moved into an apt in Green Ridge, ritzy section... Needless to say, it did not work. We finally agreed to a divorce. I even used his lawyer. I could not wait to get away from him. The day the divorce was granted, I cried and cried for the failure and for my two children. I can honestly say I did everything I could to have a happy marriage, but it takes two. The whole time we were married, he would never take me out for dinner. I always wanted to go out for my birthday or anniversary. I would start reminding him a good 3 months before the dates and he would not tell me we could go until almost the day. He was very stingy with me. He did pay child support and sent both girls to college. I made sure that the girls kept a relationship with him and his family. Because of his alcoholism, he died quite early at 64 yrs old calling me me four days before to tell me that he always loved me. It still amazes me how you can treat someone you love so poorly. I still pray for his soul. When we would go on a trip to NYC or Conshohocken or anywhere, he would drive too fast and it was frightening. If I asked him to slow down please, he would go much faster, even up to 100 mph. He would never stop to let me go to the bathroom. (even when I was pregnant) even if I begged him. He would not stop to get me a hot dog or anything to eat if I was hungry. It seemed as though he delighted in making me miserable. I was going to meet my girlfriends for apple pie and coffee one day and asked him for money. He gave me 10¢. Luckily I had some of my own. The way he treated me most of the time killed all the love I ever felt for him. I am sorry to say that I do not remember any happy times married to Frank. But, I am sure there must have been some. Our sex life was non existent. Since Frank was the first sexual experience in my life, I certainly knew nothing about sex and evidently, neither did he. How I finally got pregnant is amazing. It consisted of one kiss, on, off, roll over and go to sleep. That is the only way I can describe it. I
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