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The Fundamentals sion. Then he said, “Have you these other blessings ?” I said, “No, I have not.” I was just angry because I wanted to know what I was going to do for God. We knelt down and asked God very simply that God would give us all He had for us. When I went back to my room I got hold of “The Christian’s Secret of a Happy Life.” That night I just meant business, and it seemed to come so plain—old truths, it may be, but they seemed to grip me that time. I had known about Jesus Christ’s dying for me, but I had never understood that if he had died for me, then I didn’t belong to myself. Redemption means buying back so that if I belonged to Him, either I had to be a thief and keep what wasn’t mine, or else I had to give up everything to God. When I came to see that Jesus Christ had died for me, it didn’t seem hard to give up all to Him. It seemed just common, ordinary honesty. Then I read in the book: “When you have surrendered all to God, you have given him all the responsibility, as well as everything else. I t is God who is responsible to look after you and all you have to do is to trust. Put your hand in His and the Lord will lead you. I t seemed quite a different thing after that and in a very short time God had told me what to do and where to go. God doesn t tell a person first by his head; He tells him first by the heart. God put it in my heart and made me long to go to China. There were lots of difficulties m the way. Possibly some of you have difficulties in your way. Don’t you turn aside because of the difficulties. There was not one of all my rela tives but thought that I had gone clean mad. My elder brother, who was a true Christian, said to me one evening, “Charlie, I think you are making a great mistake.” I said, “There is no mistake about it.” He said: “You are away every night at the meetings and you do not see mother. I see her, and this is just breaking her heart. I think you are wrong.” I said, Let us ask God. I do not want to be pig-headed and go out there of my own accord, I just want to do God’s will.” It
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