EMMA'S DIARY
DON'T CAST YOUR PEARLS BEFORE THE SWINE
people that didn’t want to buy what I was metaphorically selling.
No explaining...
more work I do on myself the more obvious it is that it is true. After all, I am assertive; I know what I want ; I am mouthy and say some inappropriate things at the most inappropriate times so I certainly did not have myself down as an ‘over sharer of explanations and worrying about being understood’ . This is what my new life coach kindly emailed me after our first brief meeting a few weeks ago. I really really don’t like it but I know if I don’t accept it I cannot change it. Although the message was clear it prompted me to remember my CEO friend telling me a long time ago and many times since then ‘don’t cast your pearls before the swine’. I of course had no idea what she meant but I know now. The energy I have wasted explaining to
I did it. I left the group text. Writing about it and reflecting gave me the courage I needed to do it. And guess what happened?!
She (my coach) meant that I am over explaining myself; rationalising; justifying in the hope that people understand me better and probably, no definitely to try and gain peoples approval and agreement that my intentions are good. The incessant explaining is often done with real time self-reflection and massive vulnerability without any of the understanding from the person in the end anyway, just judgment and entrapment, using what I have said to score points against me in the future. Mostly a waste of time on my part as I wasn’t and am not thought any better of for it.
Nothing . Absolutely nothing.
I sent a nice little message and off I popped and that was the end of that. Months of procrastinating and thinking that people will have something to say when actually they didn’t. They couldn’t give a shit about me. I knew this and why would I care anyway. But I did. What did the whole thing teach me? It taught me that I worry too much about what others think. I want to deny this with every fibre of my being but the. more and
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