in a weak moment with one of those fiery darts. I’m so glad a few days later he called me and said, I’m so sorry I said that. My confidence is in the Lord Jesus Christ. I need to make a confession myself. In 2006 my wife, Millie, suffered an acute anxiety situation, and since then it’s been a long, slow goodbye. Little by little, over the years, she is losing more and more of herself. We talk less and less. She walks very little. She sleeps most of the time. I need to be honest and tell you that one day I, too, said, Dear God, why are you allowing this to happen to us? Look how faithful Millie has been and how we have served you. God began to speak to me, and soon I was able to say, Okay, God. I’m sorry. I know you are planning the best for us, and we accept it. Then I lost my eyesight. I’m legally blind now, and that news came as a heavy blow. When you lose your vision, everything slows down and stops. It was a difficult battle for me because Satan hit my heart and my mind with those fiery darts of doubt. But one day I said, Okay, God, I’m going to surrender my eyesight to you. I’m sorry I ever doubted because I know your ways are perfect. A number of years ago, I fell and hurt my shoulder. For the first time and the only time I can remember, I was depressed. I sat in my chair. I didn’t do anything. I didn’t want to do anything, and it didn’t bother me that I didn’t want to do anything. I just sat in my chair for days. After three or four days of that, God began to speak to me. I remember saying, Lord, I’m sorry for my bad attitude. Then I said this, Lord, if I never play another note on my organ or my piano or my keyboard it’s perfectly alright. I’m going to thank you for the thousands of times I was able to play those instruments for Your honor and glory. I thought about my situation a little bit more, and I said, God, if I never preach another sermon, thank you for the thousands of times you allowed me to preach to multitudes of people all over the world. Thank you, God. I gave it to the Lord.
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A Great Faith
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