What would your headlines be when drinking and now ? "Woman heard arguing with her husband in the kitchen again tonight ..in the morning she doesn't recall what the argument was about." (THEN) "Woman seen smiling and gazing at the sky at dawn and dusk" clear-headed and content." (NOW) -H.B.- Tara 2022 I think I have been in a process of acknowledging and healing ever since my divorce four years ago. Since then, I have spent a lot of time thinking and reflecting… Seeing clearly the many mistakes that I I have made throughout my life and realizing that the failure of my marriage was not 100% my alcoholic husband‘s fault. That being said, I now need to face and acknowledge that I have a mindset of either thinking that the next catastrophe is right around the corner… Or… That at some point up ahead life is finally going to get easier and I just need to “grin and bare it” until I get there. I need to acknowledge that because we are human, shite happens. That’s life. Sometimes it’s our own fault and sometimes it’s out of our control, but no matter what, it’s inevitable. I need to be OK with that. When I am experiencing strong emotions that I want to run away from (as fast as I can,) I have had success with writing those emotions down in my journal and then sitting with them, allowing myself to feel them and examine them. For me, this requires quite a bit of courage. However, I can usually walk away from these sessions with clarity and healing. This is not an easy subject! Alcoholics use alcohol to run from their feelings and I am no exception. -L.D.- Tara 2022 This morning as I sit here with my coffee, listening to the birds and enjoy the view of my fall baskets I am also feeling joy and peace. My husband asked me this morning if I have had time for my pledge 100. He has asked me this a few times lately and it fills my heart having him sincerely ask and care if I have made this time for myself. He must see that it’s making a difference in me�. I have shared a couple Ted Talks with him along the way. So for me I continue to take the step into the straight path in front today. Doing the things that have been serving me well along with stepping a few more steps forward. Circles are exhausting! -A.B.-Tara 2022
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