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meeting with Pamela and Tommy until he went through our busi- ness plan completely. I knew in that instant that the deal and the possibility to show what I could do and how much money we could make were over, at least with me being involved. Just the day before, I’d felt
I now look back with gratitude since I was able to grow from this experience!
ecstatic, and now I left feeling lower than I ever had before. I was angry with myself for not handling the situation better. I was totally upset with myself because I felt like I was out of my league
and should have not tried to reach a level higher than I was sup- posed to. Even as I write this now, I can feel the same knot in my stomach I had then, but I now look back with gratitude since I was able to grow from this experience! So I went back home with my tail between my legs, feeling like a victim. What’s worse, as soon as I got home, my pager went off, and it was one of my tenants, whose plumbing backed up, and there was literally six inches of raw sewage in the bathroom. No plumber would clean it up, so I got fishing waders and did it myself. As I was cleaning, I remember saying, “Back to reality.” When this event happened, I was still learning about all the techniques I am now able to share with you in this book. I was not thankful for what I had already accomplished. I was focusing on what I didn’t get and how I had failed . My limiting beliefs that were deep inside of me were coming out strong. I couldn’t possibly see how this failure could be a lesson at that time. Looking back, I realize this was a huge turning point in my life. After a few weeks of misery, I woke up one morning and snapped out of it. I started thinking of everything I had already accomplished, my amazing family and friends, and the love I had in my life. I was not going to let one deal or one man’s opinion of me or my ideas change my desire for more—my desire to grow. I deserved more, and I was going to continue, and somehow, some- day, I knew this would be an incredible lesson.
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